There is a saying that “In life, you just cant get everything you wants!” Maybe its true, because for me, in my life, I’ve pretty much got everything that I ever wanted but A Baby!
I know for most of peoples, they fall pregnant easily. But for me, it seems impossible now. Now? Yes! Because I’ve been pregnant before, and I aborted for a reason that am not ready to have baby just yet. I was 19yo.
I am now 27yo, and been trying to have a baby (girl, if possible) for almost 2 years now. There are times, when I think that God is mad at me because of what I’ve done, so this is like kinda punishment. I am sentenced to be infertile for the rest of my life!
But some other times, I think I should just take it easy, and never give up trying.
I do HOPE that one day in the future I can go shopping with my lil girl (or boy), I can buy them ice cream, I wanna drop them off and pick them up from school, I wanna take them going to cinema watching 3D kids movies. I wanna buy them lil feet some lil cute shoes. Oh…I got a lot in mind of what am gonna do if I have babies.
As a women, thats all I HOPE for now!